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Archive for April 4, 2008

Crying in the Moment

I was thinking about loss today.

I had a good cry listening to Yael Naim. Not the “New Soul” song, but track 6 and 7. Usually, those songs would not make me cry. Not like Ben Fold’s “The Luckiest”. I can’t really listen to that song without crying. It is ridiculous. Like Robert Munsch’s “Love You Forever”. Just forget about it. I definitely can’t read it out loud. Imogen usually won’t let me even look at it unless for some reason or another she will show it to me and say, “remember this book?” She looks up at me nervously, curious. Maybe she thinks that I will start bawling right on the spot. Not satisfied with my reaction and perhaps with more than a little morbid curiosity, she will start flipping throughout the pages. “Remember this part?” she asks, again, carefully watching me.

Crying helps me when I feel sad and happy. Today, I was sad. I thought about how some people don’t get a fair deal in life. I thought about losing my own Mother. I thought about dying and leaving my children. I thought about how fast your life can change. And I cried because life can be so raw sometimes. Just so cruel. I thought about that for awhile and about how the opposite of that is the total and utter beauty that life also offers us. The babies that are born to us. The friendships that we develop. The love that we find. The nature that surrounds us. Once again I had to remind myself to live for those things right now because none of us ever know when those things might change and to never take them for granted because there are so many people that would switch places with us in a second. The only way to show respect to those who are suffering is to live life right now, fully present in each moment and, if that means having a good long cry, then so be it.

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Imogen Harlequin

Harlequin Imogen


Finally…

imogen1s.jpgWell, here I am! It has only taken over five years but I’ve finally got my web page up and running! I am so happy! It is still in the works but with the help of PARADE and Chris I think that I’ll be able to keep this site interesting and current. Of course, having two little ones, time will always be a challenge. I just hope I can continue to find little snippets of time here and there so I can keep creating and even a little blogging.The work in The Current Paintings gallery have all been done since the of end January. For this I can give full credit to Scarlett. She decided that she would not only nap in the house (not in the car) but she would sleep in her own crib at night. All night! OK, OK, there was a little crying out involved but not half as much as I’d expected. These two hour afternoon naps have allowed me the time do art more regularly. Most often with Imogen by my side. As you can see, she is not only my muse (as is Scarlett as seen in “Tea and Oranges”) but she has also become my painting companion. We often play ‘Graphic Art Store’ where we both have deadlines and commissioned art to create. Imogen answers the phone, takes the money, meets with clients and paints so you can see I get off rather easy. All I have to do is paint and play along. It is not exactly the same as losing yourself in your art but I am spending some great quality time with her and really enjoying myself while being creative. I haven’t been able to say that for a really long time!Anyway, thanks for looking at my paintings! I hope that you enjoy them.