Mixed Media Artist

No Place Like Home

This is a 6″x12″ mixed media painting on paper covered wood cradle. The sides are 1.5″ deep and are painted red.

This painting is available HERE.

Yesterday, I sat on the couch and watched The Secret Garden with Imogen. That is all. I didn’t work on my computer, look at my phone or make a list in my head of other things I had to do. I just sat with my daughter and watched this beautiful story unfold in front  of us.  It was her first time watching this movie. This story is so beautiful and so sad.  I feel so emotional about  Mary’s Mother, who never realized the gift she had right in front of her eyes and Colin’s Mother who was never able experience the joy of being a mother.  Both children lost without their Mother’s love,  the saddest thing that I can imagine.When it was over, I looked at Imogen and her eyes were damp…unlike mine, which were over flowing with tears. She told me it was ‘OK’ because she had been crying too.  I pulled her close to me and I cried my heart out. It felt good to release  all those tears and when I looked at her again, I realized that she was crying her heart out too.  We held each other like that until the tears subsided.

Sometimes I worry about how emotional I am.  It is not my eight year old’s job to hold me until I stop crying. Is this too much pressure for me to put on her? Of course, because of the size of her heart, she would always hold me. I know that. My sadness would never make her recoil in an uncomfortable fear of feeling too much.  Would I be so generous? I wonder. I also wonder if she was crying because the movie made her sad/happy/melancholy? Or,  and I hazard to think that this is closer to the truth, more because she felt for MY sadness.  God, her heart is so pure,  I love her so.

PS this painting, obviously has nothing to do with The Secret Garden, it was just a coincidence that it was what I was working on.

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5 responses

  1. Tanya C.

    I love this painting!

    The story you share is wonderful. I love that you can be this open with your emotions with Imogen. It will show her that there is no shame in showing your emotions. And this documentation of your relationship with both your daughters will be a wonderful thing to share down the road. They make make fun of it at say, 16 or so but they’ll eventually see it as a fantastic, tangible testament to how much you love them.

    April 14, 2012 at 8:16 pm

    • Thanks, Tanya, nice to know you don’t just think that I am a big sap. (that may be because I know that you are one too).

      April 14, 2012 at 8:23 pm

      • I read what you wrote and could so identify. I forwarded it to my daughter and said ” I know I would so love this woman” Thank you for sharing and allowing the rest of us sentivie artists to just “be” ~ judy

        April 15, 2012 at 2:30 pm

  2. Thanks, Judy, you are so kind. Couldn’t have a bigger complement than you sending this to your daughter.
    Best- Maria

    April 15, 2012 at 4:37 pm

  3. xoxo I cried just reading your post…artistic temperment…deep waters. It’s all good, and your so blessed to have a girl with a heart as big and tender as yours. Don’t stop the tears I say. Its a beautiful gift to show our children how to be vulnerable in front of others. Thats where all the good stuff is. Love your beautiful stories :o)

    April 17, 2012 at 11:05 pm

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