Mixed Media Artist

Floating … Floundering… But With Faith

I feel like I am floating, unattached. Completely lost.

Maybe not floating, more like flailing. Floundering.  Panicking?

I am nowhere and I am everywhere. My ideas flit from one thing to another. My focus is off. Everything seems blurry and the harder I try to focus, the more I completely loose sight of what I am looking at.

Two months away from daily painting will do this.

How to get back?

My mantra has always been ‘inspiration finds us when we are working'(Picasso).  I know this to be true. Intellectually.

Your ego, however,  does not care about what you know intellectually. Your ego sees that little seed of fear and runs with it.

Fear is not a great springboard for the creative process. Panic does not make you want to sit down and paint something beautiful.  It is hard to shut out those self doubts that begin to creep into your mind and to starts those wheels turning again.  It is hard to get in the flow again.

All I can do is have faith and keep coming to the page/easel .  Paint what I love.  Have fun. Try new techniques or mediums.

These are some of the tricks that I have used in the past, let’s hope they work this time!

One thing I do know;  I loved the summer I spent with my two girls and  just as they are happy and excited to be back in school, I too am happy and excited to be back in my studio… AND  that  is a pretty good place to start. (Floundering and all.)


The day is committed to error and floundering; success and achievement are matters of long range
 Johann Wolfgang von Goethe







5.5″ x 13″ mixed media painting on rag paper. This painting will need to be matted and framed by you.

This painting is available HERE


8 responses

  1. martinart7

    Hang in there! I’m in the same place. Even feeling guilty about the money I spend on art supplies and studio costs. Big “who am I?” Need to stand waaaaay back for perspective. Digging deep into my readings on Buddhism and solitude, following thru religiously on exercise and health, and hugging the day lights out of my gorgeous loveable 9 month old grandson. Also have been reminding myself that what’s going on in the world is particularly toxic now–has been for a while–and trying to remember that those of us with creative gifts have a serious role to play in countering that toxicity. Keep chin up!



    September 4, 2014 at 5:55 pm

    • Everything you say is true. I appreciate your kind words!

      September 10, 2014 at 4:15 pm

  2. Dear Maria,

    Write on the top of your next canvas:

    “This painting is not for sale”

    and give yourself permission to truly enjoy the process and allow yourself the time to reconnect to your creative process. Play, make mistakes, discover 🙂

    Best, Gail Buggy

    September 4, 2014 at 6:38 pm

    • Thanks Gail! This is good advice!

      September 10, 2014 at 4:14 pm

  3. margot egan

    I understand how difficult and daunting it can be to get back to work. Go over your past work for inspiration. Try to find further inspiration in other artists like Chihuly who’s colours and flow are so beautiful. It will al come back to you!

    September 4, 2014 at 7:42 pm

    • Thanks for your encouragement Margot!

      September 10, 2014 at 4:14 pm

  4. There’s always a time of resettling after being away – just going through that myself! – and it can be tough to feel so disconnected from the practice. It does shift: it teaches us patience, and it it teaches us to see (rather than just looking). You’ll be fine!

    September 8, 2014 at 4:20 pm

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