10″x20″ mixed media painting on wood. The sides are 1.5″ deep and are painted red (but can be painted turquoise).
This painting is available HERE
Another year is coming to a close and I can’t help but think ‘where the heck did it go?’ The girls are so busy, I am so busy, Chris is so busy … we don’t take much time to breath it all in, it just seems to be happening so quickly. I constantly feel rushed. The noise in my head continually barking out my ‘to do’ list to me. I chant what I need to do in my morning shower like some mantra or prayer. I plan tomorrows dinner while eating todays. I love my life, it is sounding like I do not and I don’t mean it to sound that way. I am blessed, I know this. I remind myself of this everyday but I need to figure out a way to fit it all in with out missing it all at the same time. I get to paint for a living and that … that is my dream, that is what I have wanted to do since I was a little girl. I get to hear people telling me how much they love my art, how much it means to them, pretty much on a daily basis. Really, what more could someone want out of life? And still, I feel unaccomplished. Striving for the next thing. Worried that all my future art will be shitty and no one will want it anymore (Do you hear that EGO? you are still winning). In January I will turn 50. 40 was an epic year for me. I read Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth and Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat, Pray, Love and they helped me to find the strength to make my dreams to be an artist a reality. The universe aligned perfectly for me so I was able to do just that: Children napped more frequently, the internet had this thing called Etsy and I had a digital camera and a big ass scanner. So 50, here is what I want from you. I want to write more, breathe more, eat less (or better), stress less, love more, walk more, laugh more … be present more. BE PRESENT MORE. BE, NOW. These are my intentions as I look toward next year, a big one. My dreams are unlimited but that doesn’t mean I’m unhappy, it just means I know that I can get even more out of this blessed life that I lead if I can actually experience living it.
Happy Holidays everyone. Much love,