Mixed Media Artist


This is a 12″x 48″ mixed media painting. The sides are 1.5″ deep and are turquoise. This painting is available HERE in my Etsy shop or directly through me maria@mariapacewynters.com. layaway is available on this painting.
Becoming a mother was such a magical thing for me but it was also terrifying. How could we (maybe I should call it parenting) possibly be responsible for this tiny, wee person? How was I going to be able to keep that nest from falling? How could I keep this thing safe, fed, happy? At the same time I couldn’t stop looking at that perfect little human form. How was it even possible to make something so perfect? My lips were sore from kissing the tiny little head, feet, fingers. When they cried from pain, I physically felt that pain within me. (I call it the mommy pain and I still get it). It is such a balance, a dance that never ends. We remain parents for the rest of our lives. Once so self absorbed now your brain is split in two equal parts, the love of your own self with the love of your children. They usually win if it means having to make a choice. This is the contract you have signed as a parent, you have willingly signed, they come first. You wouldn’t have it any other way because what you do for them, you really are doing for yourself. It makes sense.Like life, it is cyclical .  I will always be grateful that I was able to experience motherhood, it was touch and go for years but it finally happened for me. I would not be the artist I am today without them.

4 responses

  1. Amen Sister!

    April 16, 2019 at 11:07 pm

  2. Another amen from me. I just watched a really interesting documentary on Motherhood and artists. It was on the show Artbound. It talks about how women artists fight the stigma of being and mother and having to choose between one or the other like we can’t be both.

    I agree with your sentiments. My heart walks around all day without me even near it and he has no idea how much I love him. I don’t think we’re capable of knowing that love – how much your parents love you – until we have a child. Beautiful painting.

    April 17, 2019 at 10:41 pm

    • Oh wow, sounds interesting. I need to look it up.
      Thank you so much ❤️

      April 17, 2019 at 11:10 pm

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