Mixed Media Artist

Posts tagged “Raymond Carver

To Call Myself Beloved

24″x38″ mixed media on clayboard.

Available to purchase here
Lay away available for this purchase.

I think I am starting to believe her.

She really is looking more comfortable in her own skin.

Kind of like me.

Even So

14″x18″ mixed media on canvas.
Available on Etsy
I love the way Raymond Carver uses the phrase ‘even so’, in the poem Late Fragment.
They tell us so much don’t they?
Those two little words.

I have been feeling kind of scattered so I have decided to finish, document and sign the paintings that I have for my upcoming show. I think that this might me ground me a little and remind me that I do have 14 pieces, anything more will be gravy …(but I love gravy so I am sure there will be some!)

To Call Myself Beloved

I have decided that this will be the title of my new show. It is a line from the Raymond Carver poem ‘Late Fragment’

Late Fragment

And did you get what
you wanted from this life, even so?
I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
beloved on the earth.

I relate to this poem in so many ways, as I am sure that you all do as well.

I can definitely call myself beloved. Beloved, always, by my parents, beloved by my husband and children.
The one thing that I haven’t always been able to say is ‘beloved by myself’. To love myself enough to create. To love myself enough to allow those negative voices to dissolve away and become insignificant whispers. The greatest gift I could ever have allowed myself. To be whole. To stop wondering what if ? To stop dreaming and start doing.
I am so happy that I now can call myself beloved. I am grateful every single day.